Last Saturday morning. I spent 3 1/2 hours, writing without stop. The words just flowed from me. It was all fresh, wonderful, awesome! I wrote a total of 16 pages which finished Chapter 8 of my MIP, TEARS OF THE SUN, a chapter I’d been working on for over a year. Okay, I know once I re-read what I’ve written, it won’t be as fresh, wonderful, or awesome as when I finished it. In fact, when I go over it again, I’ll probably think it’s no more than okay.
That’s the trouble with this business…it rides you, up and down, just like a roller coaster. Right now, I’m still up because I haven’t had time to re-write what I wrote. But in the next few days, I’ll be getting the judges’ comments on the first chapter of TEARS that I submitted to the WHERE THE MAGIC BEGINS contest. Part of the downward cycle has already started because I already know how many total points I got compared to the other entrants.
Understand, I didn’t actually want to final. Heck, my book is no where ready to submit. But a small part of me, shared a disappointment with the entrants that I didn’t final. Again, a downward move on the coaster. And when the comments come in…Yep, you guessed it. I’ll hit rock bottom. I’ll mope around, feeling like I should keep my day job. (Oh, wait, my mortgage company thinks I should keep my day job!)
Then I’ll get very pissed. How dare these sluts tell me what’s wrong with my story? Growl, grumble, snort. And a few other words I can’t say because this is a family blog…sort of. My anger will fire my will to “show” them they don’t know what they’re talking about.
Finally, I’ll look at the comments and get all these great ideas of where I can either incorporate the suggestions or get a path to use based on the comments. I’ll get all excited and write, hopefully with the same kind of flow I had last Saturday. And maybe this time as I make that upward swoop on the roller coaster, this time I’ll fly right off the tracks and straight into a sale.
God, I love this ride!